Unexpected Break To Prevent Suffocation..

An unexpected change of the mid-term break from 16th Aug-23rd Aug to 29th Jul-4th Aug to prevent the spread of the H1N1 virus in the university caused many chaos at the university campus. Many will rushing back home during the peak hours after the office hours causes traffic jam and KTM passengers will surely be packed like sardin.

This break may help me to release some tension after 3 weeks of becoming an engineering student and help me to prepare for the 1st test but to many it is not appropriate as all their plans had been destroyed due to this sudden change. I need to prove to many that I am capable

of getting an engineering degree with desirable result although I am a slow-learner.

I am still unable to know all my coursemates well enough to have them sit with me during lectures and to have lunch together. I still have to put on a fake smile when I meet anyone to prevent rumours from spreading around the university like the H1N1 virus. I might be the eldest among them but I am not a good leader as always and I only can get warm up after a long period of time.

Hopefully time will change all these and I hope I will be eager to attend lectures every morning and to meet with my fellow coursemate.

Tough time ahead..

It has been a week of tough decision making, emotional breakdown, and struggling to adapt to a new environment. These are not the stuffs I wan during my short period in university. Seeing few of them taking the extra effort to make sure they are able to change programme, I am disappointed with the way I take things for granted cause i got it the easy way. (How I wish someone will be walking by my side during the next 4 years in engineering faculty) Time to change from a comfortable zone to a zone full of prejudice and smart people.

I am still waiting for a miracle to happen. Really giving up hope as the responses from relevant authorities are not encouraging.

People come and people go in my life. I am like a huge rock settle down in the middle of the sea and people I know are like waves passing by me to create interaction. Sooner or later, I will be wash away by strong current. But it is fate that bind us together.

I am trying not to be emotional as everything have it's own way to overcome it.

Confuse..

"Yeah! I have got it." This will be the reaction if I received the result to change programme from Bachelor Science (Honours) Chemistry to Bachelor Engineering (Chemistry) one semester ago. But now it is "So what? Another decision making time?" although the official offer letter is not out yet.

When things are about to settle down after a week of rushing to the lab for practical, waiting for the lab assistant for more than half and hour, rescheduling the time table again and again and arguing with a lecturer so that Friday will be free of lectures but all these will be in vain if I decide to be an engineering faculty student.

Few of my friends hope I do not change but there is one who said she will support my decision no matter what it is. Meeting up with strangers and adapting to new environment is not my cup of tea. What I hope is that they will respect whatever decison i make and will not forget me as a friend until they are in heaven.

A Beautiful Begining..

It's been a week since I am back from a leadership camp of my residential college in Pangkor Island. It has been a great experience since I joined less than 5 activities organised by my residential college for the pass 1 year. Peers influence is one of the factors in addition to my laziness to socialise with people that I do not know well. We guys were unofficially 'appointed' as group leaders as they were only 4 boys divided into 4 groups. And the worse thing was being force to take the lead in any group activities. Well, I am still a gentleman in front of the ladies as I still allowed the ladies to go first. (if you get what I meant)

This week I get to meet 2 different group of friends at the same location but different time. On wednesday, I went out with Alvin, Seet Yen and Chuin Er. They are consider my day-out-during-semester-break buddies as Alvin will definitely plan something during our break for us to meet up. Today I went out with Chun Chi, Jye Ping and Huai Yee who are the people closest to me during my Form 6. Although I met up with Chun Chi occasionally in UPM, he constantly reminded me to meet up to kill our boredom at home and to meet the girls who I have not meet them for more than 1 year. (sorry I missed all the gatherings) Well someone promise to take me out after his exam. Hahahha.. (I still did not get to meet someone who went to Singapore)

More people are coming back for their summer break next month. So hopefully can meet with you guys soon.

Random

People that I am closed to are trying to work with the word 'friend'. A few of them are having problems with their friends as what I have been through before. The feeling of being left out or not being care for are usually the most common thing to mention when the issue of friendship is being brought up. Nowadays I tend to take it easy when it comes to this issue as I know that it is difficult to depend on your friends when you really need them (sorry if I have insulted anyone)

Today will be the stepping stone of my life as my application to change programme will be posted out. I am keeping my fingers crossed so that God can make the correct decision for me. Besides, I will be leaving for university to attend some camp name 'Kem Kepimpinan Generasi xxxx Belas. It was a last minute phone call when I was soundly asleep that I agree to participate in. Again I am keeping my finger crossed so that it will be an enjoyable trip cause I really have nothing else to do at home for these last three weeks of this unproductive semester break. These 2 things are done aknowledging that my current bunch of friends will not be always by my side and I have to carry on with or without their pressence.

To my friends out there (if you accidentally bump into this blog), I am ever ready to listen to all your grudges and problems but no promise that I am a good counsellor. I must thank those who had lend their ears to listen to my grandfather story when I am down. Hopefully I can be a good listener when someone knock on my door.

Holiday, holiday n holiday..

Finally another posting on my blog after a long lay off untill me myself forgotten what was my last post. I had been super free during this sem break as I was too lazy to look for a job but I do not have anything to post as my holidays are spent staying at home. Luckily there was this Sarawak trip planned at the start of my first sem if not my body will be full of maggots crawling around.

This trip marked many first of my life. My first time on an aeroplane, my first overnight stayed at 2 of my friends house and many more. The aeroplane ride was short of the wow factor except during the take-off and landing part.

Talking bout the Sarawak trip. The initial figure was 16 people: 11 people from the so-called "12 brothers and sisters", 3 of my coursemate who wanted to join as my another coursemate is a Sarawakian and 2 guys who were quite close with us since the start of our journey in university. But then suddenly 3 people joined in making the total amount of people boarding the plane 18 as 1 was unable to join due to illness. (some will think that why should I bring up this subject but I have to tell that facts undergo twists and turns will still be facts) 4 of us guys chengloong, kinmeng, allan and me stayed at ivan's beautiful and spacious house as he was super kind to offer me accomodation after noticing my fall-out with the initial gang.

Sarawak was better than expected. Most of the houses in the Kuching town are either semi-d or bungalows. (mind you not made of wood but of concrete) The price of the food are cheap and enough to fill the stomach.

We had a tentative to follow as it was a good guide so that we have a better time management. But most of the time we went 2 separate ways in a group of 10. The places we went include Sarawak Museum, Civic Center, The Spring Mall, Cat Museum, Cultural Village, Damai Santubong and Semantan and etc.. Let the pictures do the talking.

The day before departure

At the airport

Holidays...

Today is unofficially my last day of this semester as I have finish all my papers already. Some of the results are out and although it was not up to my expectation but I have to concede as I get paid according to the effort I have put in.

Lets looked back to what I have achieved during this semester. I have learned how to socialize with people which I seldom talk to. Study wise I am getting lazier with my laptop around and also the super-slow internet connection in my room.

I had been looking forward to this semester break as it didn't started of well with several misunderstandings with the people around me. Well you will know who are your true friends when you are in trouble. But now on the last day of my year 1, my heart is getting heavier to leave this place although I can just pack my things and call my mom to pick me up this evening. All the memories will remain you will never know what will happen next.

I would like to thank those who have been at my side all these while although I can be irritating most of the time. You know who are your.

Here are pictures from the outing this pass 1 week. I am proud to say that that I have try ice-skating but I keep clinging on the side railing.

Signing off here and will online back after two-and-a-half month.