Unexpected Break To Prevent Suffocation..

An unexpected change of the mid-term break from 16th Aug-23rd Aug to 29th Jul-4th Aug to prevent the spread of the H1N1 virus in the university caused many chaos at the university campus. Many will rushing back home during the peak hours after the office hours causes traffic jam and KTM passengers will surely be packed like sardin.

This break may help me to release some tension after 3 weeks of becoming an engineering student and help me to prepare for the 1st test but to many it is not appropriate as all their plans had been destroyed due to this sudden change. I need to prove to many that I am capable

of getting an engineering degree with desirable result although I am a slow-learner.

I am still unable to know all my coursemates well enough to have them sit with me during lectures and to have lunch together. I still have to put on a fake smile when I meet anyone to prevent rumours from spreading around the university like the H1N1 virus. I might be the eldest among them but I am not a good leader as always and I only can get warm up after a long period of time.

Hopefully time will change all these and I hope I will be eager to attend lectures every morning and to meet with my fellow coursemate.

Tough time ahead..

It has been a week of tough decision making, emotional breakdown, and struggling to adapt to a new environment. These are not the stuffs I wan during my short period in university. Seeing few of them taking the extra effort to make sure they are able to change programme, I am disappointed with the way I take things for granted cause i got it the easy way. (How I wish someone will be walking by my side during the next 4 years in engineering faculty) Time to change from a comfortable zone to a zone full of prejudice and smart people.

I am still waiting for a miracle to happen. Really giving up hope as the responses from relevant authorities are not encouraging.

People come and people go in my life. I am like a huge rock settle down in the middle of the sea and people I know are like waves passing by me to create interaction. Sooner or later, I will be wash away by strong current. But it is fate that bind us together.

I am trying not to be emotional as everything have it's own way to overcome it.

Confuse..

"Yeah! I have got it." This will be the reaction if I received the result to change programme from Bachelor Science (Honours) Chemistry to Bachelor Engineering (Chemistry) one semester ago. But now it is "So what? Another decision making time?" although the official offer letter is not out yet.

When things are about to settle down after a week of rushing to the lab for practical, waiting for the lab assistant for more than half and hour, rescheduling the time table again and again and arguing with a lecturer so that Friday will be free of lectures but all these will be in vain if I decide to be an engineering faculty student.

Few of my friends hope I do not change but there is one who said she will support my decision no matter what it is. Meeting up with strangers and adapting to new environment is not my cup of tea. What I hope is that they will respect whatever decison i make and will not forget me as a friend until they are in heaven.